Everything just feels so wrong at the moment...
Maybe it's the fact that I'm dead tired right now, but still.
I just have this unpleasant feeling in my stomach. I'm nervous, without real cause...

I hate feeling like this and yet no matter how hard I try I can't shake the fear of you saying those 5 words I don't want to hear.
I know you don't want to say them but at the same time I understand why you would say exactly those 5 words.

No matter how I twist and turn this situation right now all I see is you saying those 5 words. Neither of us wants to hear them but we both now the reason for them.
We both accept and respect the reason for saying them. Yet it seems so illogical that even tho we want the same thing we can't make it a reality before you go where you need to go and do what you need to do.
I know you'll make the right decision, and hopefully it won't be involving those 5 words.